And Jesus looked upon those who followed him and said,
Verily, verily I say unto you, there is one among you who is loud, whose filter fails often, one who trips over boundaries; one who is too quick to speak sometimes, who has volatile emotions and sometimes hold grudges. One who is not good at moderation, one who loves the things of this world, who struggles with temperance.
Yea, verily, there is one who lives in highs and lows, who waxes hot and cold, one who daydreams, whose mind wanders, who gets bored with the every-day routines. One who does not easily keep all my sayings, and one who sometimes questions tradition and whose spirit chafes at reverence and decorum. One who wishes to follow me but seems to have a hard time leaving his sins.”
And the disciples looked one on another, doubting of whom he spake.
And it came to pass, I was exceedingly sorrowful and began to say, “Lord, is it I?” But I could not finish, for my shame choked my words. and I looked down at the floor.
And Jesus looked at me speaking, “Thou hast said.” And as I wept in sorrow and lamented my weakness, he continued.
“There is one among you who is willing to love without bound or constraint. There is one among you who takes joy in all that my Father hath created, and one who sees wonder in the skill of others. There is one who understands the joys and woes of this mortal life. There is one whose heart is tender, who understands human weakness, one who knows my mercy and sings loudly of my love.
There is one among you who is not lukewarm, one whose soul is woven from the same palette as the sunset. Whose mind soars up to the heavens at times, who can easily imagine storms being calmed, multitudes fed, and walking on water, and seeks to show others the same wonders. There is one who does not doubt that sinners can be redeemed, one who clings stubbornly to the belief that they can, one who persists in hope and labor."
And then, it was silent. After a time, I looked up, and seeing no one else said, “Lord, who is it?” And Jesus spake nothing. And then I said, with trembling voice, “Lord, is it I?”
And Jesus, loving me, said, “Thou hast said."